A few weeks ago, I joined a bible study group online, and I was really excited to be joining a group of women passionate about their faith. When the book we would be studying arrived, I opened it up and began to read. I put it down. I got sick, and I tried again to read it. I’m a pretty avid reader, I’ll read a tome on the civil war, politics, textbooks on history and winemaking, literature, biographies. But for whatever reason I cannot read this book.

I feel a bit put out about it. The group had moved on to chapter 6, while I was still trying to make it to chapter 3 (and forget the study guide questions, I didn’t answer any of them). I’m not sure if it was the book specifically, or religion in general, but it did not captivate me, enthrall me or hold my interest at all. It’s even more annoying because I really, really wanted to be part of this group, and yet I simply can’t keep up.

I removed myself from the group forum. It didn’t seem fair to the other members of the group to remain if I wasn’t keeping up with the reading. I snuck out quietly, and quickly, one simple click of a button. I don’t know why I find religion such a hard thing to study. It’s mystifying to me (not religion per se, but the fact that I can’t seem to focus on it). It’s starting to seem like a religious study is really not my thing, this isn’t the first time I’ve tried (though it’s the first formal study I’ve done).

Have you completed a bible study or read something religious that was particularly interesting? I’d love to hear about it if you have.